| Ok, I have a fear that may surprise most of you. I do not think any of you know about this. Not because I never wanted to share it just because it rarely comes up, and no one in there right mind that new me would think this is one of my fears. One of my fears is.................Large Crowds and Strangers!!!!!!!!!! What brought this up all of a sudden is Jonathon and I were talking about voting this year and I told him we need to get a sitter so we can go together. He said why? I say because I do not want to go alone. He says then we will have to pay a sitter,and I do not want to do that. I say well then I am not voting unless you come with me. He cannot for the life of him figure out why I cannot go by myself. So, then I tell him because I am scared of strange people I do not know and all the crowds. He says well you go to the mall and Kroger all the time. I say I know but those people are minding their own business, they are all walking, and moving around. Plus I am very familar with Kroger and have been to the mall by myself several times. So, at the voting place everyone will be standing in line not moving, and that scares me. I could be standing next to some strange man, could be really stinky, or talk too much, or just plan weird. Jonathon does know this about me, but it rarely happens so he forgets. The first time it happend we were at a XA dance when we just started dating, and when we showed up I was squeezing his hand so tight he ask what is wrong. So, I tell him oh you do not know this about me I am terrified of crowds and strangers. He was shocked. As most of you may be after reading this. I am very outgoing, love to talk, laugh a lot, and love meeting new people (just not in large crowds). When I have to be in a large crowd, I get sweaty palms, I am extremely quiet, I sometimes get the shakes, and hot flashses. I know its crazy, but this actually happens to me. It usually only happens when I have to go somewhere I have never been or rarely go. Like for instance the library to vote, that scares me becuase it is unfamilar. I am BIG on breaking fears and all, but just cannot seem to get over this one. Like I said it rarely comes up so why bother. I even told Jonathon if your going to give me a leacture on breaking that fear then do not bother because I just will not vote this year. The thing is I think it is extremely important for us women to vote, but I would put that feeling aside and let my fear take over. So, share you thoughts and your fears. I mean I think I need some advice or at least hear about other fears so I am not alone in this. LOL |
